i want the toaster AND the hotplate AND the hairdryer AND the microwave oven AND the mercedes behind door 7 AND the beefsteak AND the custard AND the chocolate AND i deserve it

in general, people deal with cognitive dissonance — the clashing of conflicting thoughts — by eliminating one of the thoughts. The notion that the toaster is desirable conflicts with the knowledge that you just passed it up, so you banish the notion.

the little battering ram that could

first off, gossip is the laziest locomotion.

Is poetry a sustainable resource?

Has anyone seen Zabriskie Point lately? I can't stop thinking about it, or rather, I can't stop thinking about the last 15 minutes of it, I wake up in the middle of the night and lie awake plotting a four-thousand-point-radiating-star course of action and watching the Zabriskie Point end-game replay in my "mind's eye" over and over again. My mind has no use for eye! what it needs now are four (thousand) hands.

This mental-viewing-slash-cheap-metaphor Zabriskie Point thing happened to me once before, I suddenly recall. At the very moment the Space Shuttle Columbia was burning up over Texas, someone I'd never met before was in an airplane bound for San Francisco and when that plane landed my whole life did a Zabriskie Point. Equidistant from this thought is the one about running into an old friend AT THE MALL last weekend. Jesus, was that just last weekend? I was buying stockings. That was four thousand lifetimes ago, at least.

what is it alice notley said? i never tried to be anything other than a poet

At the Latin American Club---of all the spots in all the spots of all the world's watering holes/spots----just earlier than now---Max Heller, Contact Zone Coordinator for the CPT (Rodrigo Toscano's Collapsible Poetics Theater, in residence this Friday at CCA/SPT) said the most amusing of all things, considering we'd only known each other 8 (albeit 8 long, intimate) hours: "That is so Suzanne of you Suzanne!"

What this means is that I finally am, in fact, Suzanne. Put a penny in the slot and etc

track 11 of the gramaphone best of 2006 on repeat play, which is what kind of distorted telos? it's the pretty but inaccurate bridge that seems so inadequate to a new body trying to rest after such a long, long bridge of rest-less agency, which took me so far from there to this strange new unordinary here---put a penny in the slot and make an artificial light shine?---

somewhere nearby i have a picture i took on a grassy lawn in san diego a lot of years ago: atop a decorative garden-stake glass-and-wire sculpturette of a grasshopper, is a real grasshopper, shiny, glossy, wet, with papery translucent newly discarded skin just about to drop--do i feel like that? not really. but it's in my mind to share it with you. i feel something even better than that. you can get from there to here in nothing flat.

Dear Ones,

I am taking a break and will return in the new year if not before. Please wander the bare archives, and remember!

"Let your life be a counter friction to stop the machine."

Yours,
SS

Last night I tried to open my mind. Afterwards, I fell asleep and dreamt I ate most of the petals of a cream-colored flower tipped or edged in brown. Someone told me the flower was of hallucinogenic property. I was scared but the sky became the most silvery-rose-blue untouchable breatheable lacey-cloud luminesence I have ever seen! It was bright and soft. I was walking on a road alongside a mountain, it was something simultaneous to sunrise and to dusk. Later, in what felt like a medieval village, the sky was the black-brown head of a scaley elephant, where the moon would be, its red and yellow eye.

"Let your life be a counter friction to stop the machine."