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STEVE BENSON

SUZANNE STEIN

SUNDAY, MAY 8

3pm Pacific

6pm Eastern

xtreme encounters with my own fragility lately. not just fallibility, which i've been slowly acclimating to less success in denial of. but feeling the real separation between the failing front and the self i'm trying to figure how to handle gingerly enough. I like the encounter, but it's strange. no doors

i might call, it is still before 8pm my time
but i was in meetings all day
then i drank wine
so i'm not lucid
i'm both exhausted from interlocution
and sort of drunk

surrounded always by the better-educated, i feel this XXXXX that i'm the XXXXX XXXXX in the middle. directing traffic, 'making things happen' but, uh, as the XXXXX (in all senses) XXXXX

I remember saying to my ex-husband, when we were divorcing--it was at the moment of the 2004 southeast asia tsunami--that divorce was the worst thing in the world. No, he said, the worst thing in the world is a big wave can come and wash it all away.